Buckets of love <3
Hey, love birds! I'm in a good mood today! And what's better that spreading some joy?
As you probably know by now, I'm back from Greece! It was a lovely trip, like a vacation in heaven... But I'm actually very happy to be back. Even though it was a much needed vacation, I do best at home (and with a stable internet connection...). Seriously, how do people live without the internet? It was like rehab for my addiction... But I'm not complaining! I learned how to entertain my self the old fashioned way!
Anyway, I'm staying in Oslo the entire summer... so if you're near please please please contact super lonely me! =)=)
Buckets of love <3
People often tell me that I'm the kind of person who's easy to get to know, but difficult to know well. How can a person as open and honest as me be difficult to know well?
But I can see how it might be true. Few people know me well. I do better in smaller groups of people. The fewer people, the less the chance is for someone being the same kind of person as me.
The biggest challenge for me is finding my place in a group. Whether it's family or friends, the groups always seem to be oddly numbered, and I'm usually the one left over. I usually have something in common with each of the members. But when the group is gathered, they have more in common with each other, and often things I can't relate to. Things such as hangovers, alcohol, cooking, working out, travels etc.
It's a little bit lonely. But I'm not complaining. I am simply fascinated by how history repeats itself.
I am lucky enough to live with my soul mate, one who understands me. I am lucky enough to have a couple of friends that are similar to me, and therefore understand me. But I wish I saw them more often. <3
I am always myself. I don't change my personality depending on whom I'm with. That's not honest. So one has to accepts the consequences.
To my friends: don't be offended by reading this. I mean no harm. <3
Sometimes your real friends are those who've been there all along, but who you had forgotten.
Around here, everyone takes life so seriously. I was raised to believe that the most important thing in life is education. Now, I don't completely disagree. Education is important. But it is not the most important thing in life.
The biggest challenge with being a student isn't just the constant hard work, but that everybody keeps competing with each other. Everyone wants to be the best, they all want to know what you test score was so they'll either feel good or bad about their own test scores... and oh my god, I cannot handle you people. Sometimes I just want to stand on a table and yell: "CAN EVERYONE JUST PLEASE CALM DOWN?!"
But then I'll be the crazy lady in class forever.
Let's face it. The constant trying to be better than everyone thing is a slippery slope. Few really get to be the best at something, and if they do, it doesn't take long before someone new and better swoops in and takes your place.
As you probably know by now, I'm not that kind of person. Not anymore at least. In stead of competing with people, I compete with my self. I'm always trying to do better and always doing my best. So when I do fail (which is pretty often), I'll know I did my best. And I have to tell you: the day I stopped competing with everybody else was the first day I could smile and really mean it.
Now there's a lot of people out there who look down on me. Whether it's a friend who's happy she/he did better, or a family member disappointed over your achievement, you must NEVER look down on yourself. Always respect yourself. You did your best.
And remember; no true friend nor family member looks down on you. So relax. It's OK to take a few days off, it's OK to fail sometimes. That's just life. Don't be so serious all the time!
We are all different people with different challenges and starting points. If your gonna fight, at least fight someone your own size.
People often tell me that I have a weird combination of good and bad qualities. And I agree.
I am an introvert, yet outgoing person. The other day I had a long day at school, and my friends (who had an equally long day at school) had planned a social thing afterwards. What shocked me the most at first was how they all had the energy for it. I was exhausted, and doing a sort of social thing after school, it would just make my day even longer and I'd have to wait even more before I could finally come home and relax. Of course I didn't go.
Now this turned out to be a long story. But what I discovered was that they got energy from social stuff, where as I just got exhausted from it.
A few people understand that, unless they have an introvert personality themselves. And the society btw does not like people like us.
Luckily for me, I am outgoing as well. I do not avoid social things, parties etc, I actually attend most of what I'm invited to. And I have fun doing it too! But I've noticed now that I know my self better that I only attend things I want to attend. I don't let friends or family affect me much, I only do the things I want. Which is a good thing, I guess. It's more sincere that way! ;)
I did some research about this. I found that people with an introvert personality are sensitive and have a low tolerance for dopamine (hype up drug), but they react well to acetylcholine (relax drug). Interesting, right?
Don't misunderstand, I'm only writing this to open a few more eyes. Maybe some of you will understand my exhaustion!
I have never been relaxed, but I try every day!
Passionate about a sustainable and balanced life. <3