I remember when I was in seventh grade, and kids in my class started drinking, smoking, making out (and more..). I say kids because I was nowhere near ready. In my mind, I was still a child. And I was! But you guys already know, I was never much of a child. My parents made me an "adult" as soon as my sister was born. I was two.
People and society have been trying to put me in a little box. But I never fit in any of those boxes, and I still don't. They say that from the ages 0-18 everybody is trying to be the same. They say that as you grow older, it's more about being yourself and being unique. But this is not true. Sure, you can almost be yourself. But just almost. Because you still have to fit in the box.
It really doesn't take much. Everything from kindergarden and shcool to work is made for the average person who fits in this box. So what about the people outside this box? Where in this world do we fit in?
I did not start wearing ridiculous underwear in the seventh grade. I'm glad I didn't do as the other girls. That took strength, and I'm proud of 13 year old me. My shrink tells me that I will find my flock. Maybe the boxes get worn out as we grow older, maybe that's how the people outside the boxes and the people inside the boxes meet. Or maybe we start building boxes of our own.
In a way I have found my place in this world. It is not as much a question of where, but rather a question of who. If you are struggling to fit in, know that you are not alone. Life has taught me NOT to compare myself to others. Just myself.
We are all born different from each other. Why try to be the same?