Buckets of love <3
Hey, love birds! I'm in a good mood today! And what's better that spreading some joy?
As you probably know by now, I'm back from Greece! It was a lovely trip, like a vacation in heaven... But I'm actually very happy to be back. Even though it was a much needed vacation, I do best at home (and with a stable internet connection...). Seriously, how do people live without the internet? It was like rehab for my addiction... But I'm not complaining! I learned how to entertain my self the old fashioned way!
Anyway, I'm staying in Oslo the entire summer... so if you're near please please please contact super lonely me! =)=)
Buckets of love <3
Hellooooo beautiful people!!
I'm in a weird mood today! I spent hours laughing over nothing... Then I thought there was a beautiful stranger in my house, but turns out it was just my reflection in the mirror!
Like I said: weird mood... But that's not what this is about!
A lot of people tell me that I'm pretty. But did you know that being pretty is actually a curse? It really is!
Boys are often scared to talk to me, and those who dare are not interested in being my friend. And girls absolutely HATE me. I have no idea why. But if I had to guess, I'd say they feel bad about themselves. I really don't know...
But it's really frustrating! I'm a nice person inside, and all people do is judge me by my looks!!!
So here's an attempt to change your minds about me:
I am not an arrogant person, so don't be scared to talk to me. I'm very down to earth and mostly very nice. Yes, I am very honest, but that should be a good thing! Other than that I'm very peaceful, I love hugs, and I don't judge anyone.
The next time you think you want whatever it is you think I have, think about the whole package. Remember that I have my challenges as well, and I would easily swap my beauty for a pain free life.
The prettiest girls are the loneliest.
You can judge the book by its cover, but then you'll never know the story.
People often tell me that I'm the kind of person who's easy to get to know, but difficult to know well. How can a person as open and honest as me be difficult to know well?
But I can see how it might be true. Few people know me well. I do better in smaller groups of people. The fewer people, the less the chance is for someone being the same kind of person as me.
The biggest challenge for me is finding my place in a group. Whether it's family or friends, the groups always seem to be oddly numbered, and I'm usually the one left over. I usually have something in common with each of the members. But when the group is gathered, they have more in common with each other, and often things I can't relate to. Things such as hangovers, alcohol, cooking, working out, travels etc.
It's a little bit lonely. But I'm not complaining. I am simply fascinated by how history repeats itself.
I am lucky enough to live with my soul mate, one who understands me. I am lucky enough to have a couple of friends that are similar to me, and therefore understand me. But I wish I saw them more often. <3
I am always myself. I don't change my personality depending on whom I'm with. That's not honest. So one has to accepts the consequences.
To my friends: don't be offended by reading this. I mean no harm. <3
Sometimes your real friends are those who've been there all along, but who you had forgotten.
Around here, everyone takes life so seriously. I was raised to believe that the most important thing in life is education. Now, I don't completely disagree. Education is important. But it is not the most important thing in life.
The biggest challenge with being a student isn't just the constant hard work, but that everybody keeps competing with each other. Everyone wants to be the best, they all want to know what you test score was so they'll either feel good or bad about their own test scores... and oh my god, I cannot handle you people. Sometimes I just want to stand on a table and yell: "CAN EVERYONE JUST PLEASE CALM DOWN?!"
But then I'll be the crazy lady in class forever.
Let's face it. The constant trying to be better than everyone thing is a slippery slope. Few really get to be the best at something, and if they do, it doesn't take long before someone new and better swoops in and takes your place.
As you probably know by now, I'm not that kind of person. Not anymore at least. In stead of competing with people, I compete with my self. I'm always trying to do better and always doing my best. So when I do fail (which is pretty often), I'll know I did my best. And I have to tell you: the day I stopped competing with everybody else was the first day I could smile and really mean it.
Now there's a lot of people out there who look down on me. Whether it's a friend who's happy she/he did better, or a family member disappointed over your achievement, you must NEVER look down on yourself. Always respect yourself. You did your best.
And remember; no true friend nor family member looks down on you. So relax. It's OK to take a few days off, it's OK to fail sometimes. That's just life. Don't be so serious all the time!
We are all different people with different challenges and starting points. If your gonna fight, at least fight someone your own size.
People often tell me that I have a weird combination of good and bad qualities. And I agree.
I am an introvert, yet outgoing person. The other day I had a long day at school, and my friends (who had an equally long day at school) had planned a social thing afterwards. What shocked me the most at first was how they all had the energy for it. I was exhausted, and doing a sort of social thing after school, it would just make my day even longer and I'd have to wait even more before I could finally come home and relax. Of course I didn't go.
Now this turned out to be a long story. But what I discovered was that they got energy from social stuff, where as I just got exhausted from it.
A few people understand that, unless they have an introvert personality themselves. And the society btw does not like people like us.
Luckily for me, I am outgoing as well. I do not avoid social things, parties etc, I actually attend most of what I'm invited to. And I have fun doing it too! But I've noticed now that I know my self better that I only attend things I want to attend. I don't let friends or family affect me much, I only do the things I want. Which is a good thing, I guess. It's more sincere that way! ;)
I did some research about this. I found that people with an introvert personality are sensitive and have a low tolerance for dopamine (hype up drug), but they react well to acetylcholine (relax drug). Interesting, right?
Don't misunderstand, I'm only writing this to open a few more eyes. Maybe some of you will understand my exhaustion!
I have never been relaxed, but I try every day!
Over the years, I've gotten many weird comments on my eyes. The first time it happened was when a stranger told me I had almond shaped eyes. I remember thinking that I didn't want people associating my eyes with food.
I've heard similar things since. Some say that they can see right in to my soul (whatever that is), while other say that they are exotic. Apparently makeup artist love my eyes because they are easy to put makeup on.
I was at a party last night. I was talking to this girl, when suddenly she got a dreamy look on her face. She then told me that she had gotten lost in my eyes. Lost... that's how I make people feel...
Anyway, for me these are just normal eyes. I see them in the mirror every day, I don't think they look like food, and I don't get lost in them. But hey, I'm not complaining!
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who has the biggest eyes of all?
You probably already know that I'm a big fan of love. In fact, I'll go as far as calling it my religion. But the most important kind of love isn't the one you have for others! It's the love you have for yourself.
I didn't have the best start on my life, and we all know how brutal and horrible this world can be. But in stead of giving up and accepting that my life was bad, I went out of my way to make it better. I call that love. Love for myself.
Some people say that I'm too self involved and arrogant, but I dont agree. I actually think it's a little bit wrong not to love yourself. I know I sometimes say bad things about myself, but don't misinterpret. What I'm really saying is: I accept every mistake and weakness I have, and I love myself IN SPITE of them!
And that's how I define love. When someone's flaws make them more loveable, that's real love. So why not use that on you?
It's not arrogant to always want the best for yourself, it's natural. It's called surviving!
Love yourself, and you'll always be loved. Support yourself, and you'll always be supported.
Love is the sh*t,
Passionate about a sustainable and balanced life. <3